S. D. Kilmer's Existential Life

Don't you look at me. It's so plain to see. There's so much. I'm not the person I want to be. The past has been so crual. There has never been a school To learn how to be human. The Creator must of thought that should have been natural. As humans we simply fought against our original nature, not so admirable. What now shall we ... What now shall I do? How shall this life I construed Change, transform, transcend For the better? To be less fettered. I am the aggregate of all of them who have interacted with me and I with them. Some for good. Some poorly impacted. Some not doing as they should. Others like they're tuned in to the Creator. Formation of the person, an arbitrator of all those interactions. Benefactions, microtransactions, overreactions, counteractions, communal celebration, everyone appreciation. That's it! It takes all of us. If we can just discuss, without a fuss. All of us together being good to each other. Being the bes

I love the way you move. All swank and cool. I'm a dank fool canvas. I'd like to be you. Let's see who, I can be. I love the way you speak. All soft and sexy. Everything 'bout you is neat. I'm just an entity incomplete. I'd like to be you. Let's see who, I can be. Adoptee chameleon Born to be Apparently, a utilitarian personality. Adoptee chameleon. Born to be Nothing much to see, apparently. Nobody said it would be like thees. All my own history. All blood relatives. I'm a severed twig of my family trees. They said the tree caught fire. From which they saved me. What bald liars! They took me on. An adoptee chameleon. Gill or Jillian? No one could tell. All adoptees seem to be a chameleon. How I love your body. Oh how I love your manners. Does it really matter That I want to be like you? Got nothing else to inform me. So let's see, who I am. If I can break free from Being an Adoptee Chameleon Of different colors. With different lovers. To

Don't fall down Oh don't you break down. If you're going to move anywhere. Best if you break up. Break up with those who don't love Step away from all who don't look up All those who blow their own horn All those who would rather live in a world torn. Best that you break up. If you break down you'll fall Amongst those who would do you harm. Were you to break down Your soul will no longer be sound. Best that you break up. Break up with the evil within. And make your way to the Son, there'll be no more sin. Far away from them here Who are just trying to win. Always better to break up. Don't break down Oh don't you fall. If you're going to move around. Best if you break up. __________ copyright ©️ 2023 SDKilmer, LLC All Rights Reserved www SDKilmer com ....

Don't leave me here!  Don't you leave me here this way!  What will all my friends say? Who was it that carried me on the bier? Well, will you pray for me? Or can't you wait to see another man, if only you can?  Life with you was never,  the kind I wanted.  You called me "friend" That was after you put an end to our coupling. That was after you had my ring  cut off your finger. I can hear you singing after that. You had your own definition for being a swinger. A woman, free and unattached. Since then we've never been intimate. No matter the many times I had to wait. You would love me  Only by cleaning and laundrying for me. Still you'd never give me a bath. We had a life together you never let last. Don't leave me here!  Don't you leave me here this way!  What will all my friends say?     "She buried him, with his love for her.      She's not so demur."  _________ copyright ©️ 2023 SDKilmer, LLC All Rights Reserved www SDKi

we could have been great together. If only we had our first date. Some forty years before. It's hard seeking a companion and lover     in our advanced years. Most are set in their ways     and unforgiving. Not as open as in our youth. We create such a narrow booth to dwell in     towards the end. It becomes harder to make new friends. _______________ copyright ©️ 2023 SDKilmer, LLC All Rights Reserved www SDKilmer com 

In a store, or,      a shopping mall. Of all the women who pass me by, I wonder whose not standing tall? Which one sees me, liking what she sees? Yet no one ever stops me to say,       Hello! Or are they more like me; not finding      the words that might draw us to      one another     like birds     and bees? I'd love to love you, honey. But I'd love to know who you are first. I'd love to love you, honey. I need to know who I'm loving, not to      be cursed. I need to learn your depth, it's not     any worse. I want to know your secrets, I don't      care about your money. I'd love to love you, honey. Like two ships passing in the dark; We go our own way; never stopping      to say, Hey! There must be a compatible mate. Hope to find her before it's too late. We go so fast. Never realizing the      lost opportunity. If only I could love you, honey; but I      need to know where you are. _________________ copyright ©️ 2023 SDKilmer, LLC All R