Daily Tears

The Tired Priest", a painting by the 19th century Russian artist Konstantin Savitskiy,

Daily on the verge of tears am I.

For what? For whom?

For my many failures in this life.

Things I have done,

the things I have failed to do.

For my sons Nathaniel and Stefan.

No matter how Nathaniel has disowned me; he will always be my son.

Stefan, my son, so influenced by the world so young,

Through his Serbian-American relatives;

I have been so inept to keep him on The Royal Path.

Lo, there is so much more to confess.

So much more than less.

I should allow the tears to flow.

Washing this grime from my soul.

Purifying my heart.

Cleansing the body to the start.

I am sinner.

With these daily tears of purification

I just may be a winner.

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Kilmer Poetics Journal