S. D. Kilmer's Existential Life

We are excited That you've been invited This Christmas To our house. Leave there at your house: Your family disagreements and conflicts. Bring not your stones and sticks. Bring not your dirty tricks. Being home for Christmas. Join your brothers. . . Join your sisters. . . Father and Mother! Grandpa and Grandma. Join your aunts and uncles. . . Join your cousins here too! Leaving your pettiness. Leaving your ego. Leaving the hurt that never lets go. Bring your forgiveness. Leave behind your resistiveness. We are excited That you've been invited This Christmas To our house. Being Christmas at home this year. _________________ Copyright ©️ 2021 SDKilmer LLC / HeardWords America

Alone and  lonely Confused and bewildered Don't you go Downtown. Got worries but all the noise in the world Won't chase the one's in your head. You talk about the beautiful noise of the city's traffic. You linger on the sidewalk where the  Street dwellers pee. Where cannabis lingers heavy in the air. Perhaps you'll forget your cares. Where the light's of gunfire is so much brighter there You can forget all your troubles,  then you'll really care  you might be killed. Oh what a thrill! Downtown It's no longer what it was. All the hussle and bussle and buzz You'll be dead when you're Downtown No finer place to die than Downtown Every evil thing's waiting for you there. Don't hang around and let the bad people surround. There are movie shows  where you can go elsewhere. I know. Maybe you know some other places to go to Where your friends are close. Listen to the rhythm of a billie's bossa nova You'll be swaying before the

So many years I questioned And moved left. Then one day, 23rd of September In 1979 I'd say, I turned right. For years I kept turning right Until one day, 23rd of March 1998 I'd say, I learned I've been turning left While going right. I learned I've been going wrong. I corrected my way For the Way. I turned right. Now I'm not sure If those lefts I left behind Were actual lefts Or were they rights, all along? Were they the True Way: Alithinós Trópos? Had I gone trópos!? _________________ Copyright ©️ 2021 HeardWords America

The wind is getting colder now days. The leaves are clothed in brilliant hues. Yet, the sun is strong and bright. Animals foraging. Readying their rest. While humans dreams. Of spring times. Immersed. Autumn. _________ Copyright ©️ HeardWords America written: November 2021

So loving and free; Once you used to be. The years has been unjust. Since,  You have become encrust-ed, Captured and inpenetrable. Neither a tender touch Nor a passionate embrass Do you, at least, tolerate. Where has your heart gone? Trapped within this armour of flesh? Is this what you think is best? Encounters with you  now feel so wrong. Inhuman. Distant. Untouchable. Crucible. So reducible. Once so loving and free; Come back to me! O ljubavi moja O my love. . . .  gone. ___________ Copyright ©️ 2021 SDKilmer LLC / HeardWords America .

When I found you You were sweeter than honey Far more fragrant than flowers. Never did I realize By looking at you, oh what power! I Should Have Known. You took little time To get to know me before you climbed Inside me. You handed me your baggage And sent me on a guilt trip. You set my head spinning We both should have been winning. You Should Have Known. I never realized being in relation with you Would set me on a wild journey. A journey to the center of a nightmare Oh what a journey On the wheel in the sky. Whenever I say I'm hungry You are always handing me a pie. I Should Have Known. You push away, as if to say, You had enough of me. Then as the tide in the sea Returns,  so here you are, with me. As if to say, you haven't enough of me. Then gone again, Then I receive once more      the love you send. I Should Have Known. And who really cares? There's enchantment and bewilderment in the air!. Only wanted to be loved And to love you  each and every day Hey (

I've got no time right now For your drama cow. O Mama, just get in the car! Nevermind your reasons and rhymes Yer drama's coming back as instant trauma. With you in my life I'm not getting far! Now, just get in the car! I've got a moral obligation to ya To get you to the station on time. Your life is yours, my life if mine. O Mama, just get in the car! You can laugh at my jokes Then you yell and scream  When I don't get yours. Because I was never the fulfillment of your dreams. Here are the keys and don't go slow. O Mama, just get in the car! ______________ Copyright ©️ 2021 HeardWords America #SDKilmer #poetry #Kilmer #poems

Madam Desiree, Children tugging at your skirt. Did you know ignoring them really hurts? And while she's lying on the bed. She's listening to all the voices in her head. Not born in Amerika; So who pays the rent? It's an expense the State observes. Even more than she deserve! Thursday afternoon she dresses like a nun. Friday evening she thinks salvation has been won. Saturday morning she throws off the hijab. And she thinks she's done her job. Madam Desiree, Another stranger at your breast. Wonder how many more are left? Sees herself as a desired one, But all her mirrors are long gone. Says she's an Albanian snob. She's Roma! Her ancestors are from Punjab. Not born in Amerika, She thinks herself better than any Ericka. Madam Desiree, Children tugging at your skirt Did you know ignoring them really hurts? And while she's lying on the bed. She's listening to all the voices in her head. Another stranger at her breast. Wonder how many more are lef

What can I give to you  This Christmas? What can I give you In thanksgiving? You've done so much for others. You've been the perfect lover. You've done so much for others. You've been the greatest mother. Better days are coming. You deserve it all. Better days are coming. You deserve a windfall. I'd like to give you the world. Or a necklace of pearls. Anything your heart desires. What would you want to acquire? You deserve it all. You deserve to stand tall. In this life you may not have done it all. But whatever you did, You deserve it all! You've done so much for others. You've been the perfect lover. You've done so much for others. You've been the greatest mother. What can I give to you  This Christmas? What can I give you Besides my own selfless love? __________ Copyright © 2021 HeardWords America.

"I read the news today, oh boy!" An English peace fighter, Had just lost his war. He'd been shot down. So, "Living is easy with eyes closed." His killer had to know, That The war is over, if he wanted it. 42 bullets never ricocheted. 42 holes it took     to kill a Beatle. A crowd of people turned to stare All who loved him came to pray. They gathered by the garden gate     Of Strawberry Fields. "Where nothing's seems real." Not even the fall of Lennon. John would say, "It's nothing to get hung up about!" He fought for peace. Tried his best to love. But now the walrus rests. His war with war is over. We still can hear his voice. Imagine! that. ________________ Copyright © 1980 - 2021 HeardWords America

Daily are the tears. The little girl cries,  (Once she sees her recollections.     There's no one like her but she doesn't     know who that is.) So she hides  From herself. Daily are the fears. The little girl dies,   (Once she sees her reflections.     There's no other reflection of its kind.) So she hides From herself. Daily are the tears. The little girl lies,   (Once she catches a glimpse.      Glimpses are only partial truths       Of what the tears has washed away.) Never knowing Self Never does she see Self. Cleansed by her tears. Strengthened by her fears. Yet illusioned by the lies She remains hidden from her cries, To Be! Though she did see Who she already is. Needing to precisely place All the puzzle pieces In their respective space. --- Copyright ©️ 2021 SDKilmerllc / HeardWords America.

One could always have a better mother. Thank God, your mother wasn't worse. I wished I had a mother . . . Who was as caring as a nurse. I just wished I had a mother! --- Copyright ©️ 2021 SDKilmer, LLC/ HeardWords America.

  ( for Sanja) Make no mistake. You look at me But you don't see me. I am a Lupus 1 In fierce determination Not to permit the pain     to make me lame, Or my life like a wounded dear. No, I will become a dufus     before I surrender to this lupus. In the quite of my nights You might hear my roar. But you don't really hear me. There are times the pain and flares       are too much for me to bare. I just got to roar! Before, I take it out on you, my prey. Yes I pray every moment to triumph     or at least to endure this lupus life like a lion of royalty. _________ Lupus (Latin) lion. Also the name of a autoimmune disorder. Copyright ©️ SDKilmer / HeardWords America

I saw you crack a smile To something I had said So I thought,  Won’t you come home with me? To get over you I must get over me I need to get over me Like you’re already over me I saw you express some emotion Over something I had done So I thought,  Won’t you come home with me? To get over you I must get over me I need to get over me Like you’re already over me. You became so full of energy Over something I believed So I thought,  Won’t you come home with me? To get over you I must get over me I need to get over me Like you’re already over me. So I asked,  Won’t you come home with me? That’s when you walked away So I thought, You don’t want to come home with me? Get over you Get over me I just gotta get over me ‘Cus you’re already over me. ______& Copyright ©️ 2020 HeardWords America

The world is at the end Of just another year. What did you send To each who are dear? Do you know it's Christmas Time? Do you know it's commercialisation is a crime? Do you fund the pot coz it makes you feel good when you've got a lot? Aren't you ashamed When the ones who should gain Themselves are giving from their own meager domain? Do you know it's Christmas time? What does that mean? It's not just lights and sparkling decor of any kind. Nor the town square manger scene. War and famine Old and young  never finding your labours done. God has come to you and them That everyone may be enlightened before the world comes to an end. It's the greatest gift  having been  Given from the first day unto the last. So you should ask, What must we do to welcome God Himself Through the flesh of a tiny child? Let go of yourself You are holding on so tight Let go of your willfulness Just Be there Let the Light of this New Dawn Be, still in the Divine Movement.